Okay soooooooooooo
I... don't know...
If the world is too beutiful for you to handle, then you can go out into the world slowly, so that it isn't too much, and then get to see more and more of this awsomeness and beauty the more you try;
Don't do selfharm, that's preety obvious, I know it makes you feel like
but there are other ways of doing that, thing is I don't know what they are, but if you can find them then it's preety sick;
I don't... know what theat 3rd image means. I might not be meant to.
And yeah, every day feels the same is indeed a thing that happens. You need to make it so it doesn't do that, like by doing something new that doesn't feel the same, I went around and on walks a bunch and I can take freinds onto those walks too and I can play fast music and run around on those walks, and I'm not even going anywhere just wherever the path I wanna follow goes, and seeing these new places is really fun and awsome and helps with that feeling a lots, so I guess try that, I guess